Before we begin, let’s pull together definitions for Modern Day Initiations and for Trauma.
The origin of the word modern is taken from late Latin modernus and from Latin modo ’just now’. The word initiation comes from two Latin words, in, into; and ire, to go; therefore, ‘to go into something’. Together,
Modern Day Initiations = the making of a beginnning in the now
The charged word trauma has an origin in the Greek, literally meaning wound. And wound, origins unknown, means either an injury which cuts or breaks the skin; or a feeling of sadness, anger, etc. that is caused by something bad that has happened to us. With this definition, I can understand the notion that we are all wounded on some level just by the fact that we are in human form on planet earth right now.
To me, Modern Day Initiations are a framework, growing from our cultural history and ancestry, in which to view and experience the events of our lives. MDI may be intentional or grow from unintentional events into intentional initiations. Walking through this MDI threshold may occur on a personal, group, and/or global level. In Part One, we will explore the journey of the unintentional towards initiation on a personal level.
Turning Towards Our Trauma
When we experience trauma, or “bad” things, through accidents, surgeries, illness, unexpected deaths, near death and wounding experiences, shocking our world, we experience a profound energetic impact. We may not fully be aware of it, in fact we may even glaze over it, but the effects are felt and imprinted immediately in our bodies-in our bones. Before these happenings have words or cognition, they have memory; in our tissues connecting our muscles and bones, in our fascia holding our organs and in our blood streaming through us. We are forever changed.
In the infinite intelligence of the body, our transformation begins. The direction of this unfolding shift lies in our CHOICE to embrace the trauma or not. Do we choose to go into it in the now or not? If we choose (sometimes through default) NOT to embrace our wounding, our bodies do keep on growing. When we choose NOT to go into it with consciousness, our bodies grow in a dis-jointed fashion. Our growth wraps around our trauma and twists in dis-eased patterns.
This CHOICE effects our whole trajectory. Sometimes the choice to deal with the trauma needs to go on the back burner into our subconscious. Sometimes it has to be back there for awhile as a matter of survival. Sometimes for years, even decades…sometimes for a lifetime.
Sometimes, it’s just too much and not the right timing. I remember saying “I’ll get to that when I can breathe!” Sometimes, it’s in bits and pieces…in baby steps. These kinds of initiations have a clock of their own.
And then, sometimes, a time comes when we can breathe and we breathe into our wounds, putting them on the front burner, pushing them forward from the subconscious into the conscious.
Then, the conscious unraveling of memory begins. When the time comes to turn towards the trauma, the threshold is illuminated and our bodies initiate us into our healing.
When we start collecting the bones of our dis-eased selves, the trauma unfurls and releases our twisted growth. There is deep intelligence here. There is healing here. There is initiation here. And the body is our guide. By experiencing our traumas as initiations, we gain an empowered context in which to view our coming of age stories.
For me, viewing the healing of our wounds through the lens of Modern Day Initiations serves to help us find meaning, connection and the road home to our deepest selves, our fullest selves, our conscious and present selves.
So Much Love, Cristina
Also read MDI Part 2 and 3
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